The kind of tired that sleep can’t fix

If you ask me what I want now, the answer will be ‘Sleep’. For as long as I want, starting and ending at whatever time I please. Think I need a life coach or something… I can’t seem to even perform the basic task of sleeping properly.

It’s not even insomnia anymore because I’m extra tired these days (no idea why since my stress level is currently minimal) so I fall asleep very quickly. Ermmm before 3am which is a huge improvement.

Problem is now I can’t bloody wake up on time for my course?! It’s Monday to Friday, 10am to 5pm, at my workplace. I am basically exempted from regular work for a month… Been late 2 out of 4 days -_- which is terrible because I think punctuality is a sign of courtesy.

I keep waking up, think it’s still early and try to get a few more minutes of sleep… except that I fail to wake up again. When I do, it’s with shock upon seeing the time and a mad rush. Ugh hate missing the start of the class and walking in when someone is talking halfway.

I am rarely late for work at 9.30am so I don’t know what the hell is up with me. Feel like I can’t survive the day without caffeine so I keep downing coffee the whole day too.

Other than that, this week has actually been quite good. Won’t say I’m feeling over-the-moon but I’m not down-in-the-dumps too. Monday was tiring because I went running after work then went to stock up on pet food, Tuesday was so perf I can’t even, ate and ate and ate lots of good food on Wednesday.

Went to the gym yesterday (Thursday) with CK and Jeremy who made me laugh so hard that I was rolling about on the floor. Well I was trying to stretch and plank… but all the laughing burned calories too. I think they were quite disappointed cos they wanted to see Birdman but he wasn’t around HAHA.

Damn weird ok cos I bumped into Birdman on Wednesday while leaving the building and he did his usual thing. Went something like that after all the ‘hi’s and all:

BM: Wa you look good! See, told you that you are the star. And you look slim compared to last year.

Me: No la, is my jacket nice (plus I was in black which is flattering).

BM: No I’m a guy so I can tell. Men and women see different things. You look good… keep it up!

Me: Hahahaha thanks.

BM: Remember, exercise, eat healthy… and sleep! Sleep is very important.

Me: Try…….. I will try.

Was wearing this that day. I bought the jacket from KL for only S$10. It makes any outfit smart-looking. I’m budget from head to toe. Most expensive item is the bag which was S$18 from Batam. Woman at Northpoint once tried to sell me the exact same thing for $40 (or more?) but thank goodness I passed!

Trust me… I did not lose weight as much as I wish I did. No one knows myself better than… myself. I gained more than 2kg in HK and I can feel flab all over me from stress-eating.

Quite obsessed with the gym nowadays. I will even suddenly think about it while sitting in class. Love the feeling of sweating like mad and the sense of accomplishment afterwards.

Sweaty me on Monday… can’t believe the week is nearly over. Plenty to look forward to but first I need to sleep. I’m determined to not just be on time but be early later ok?!