Ok? Not ok
June 5, 2018
June 05, 2018 / 11:14PM
I spent my first few waking hours of today crying for some crazy reason. Like the kind where I couldn’t control it and the tears just kept escaping and then I had to pathetically hide my face from everyone. Now that the stress of yesterday has subsided, I just feel fucking sad. Not quite over the same thing but related.
This couldn’t have come at a worse time cos I have so much work this week. I cannot even bring myself to text people back and everyone wants to know what’s wrong (i.e. everything and nothing?) and I’m being a shit friend but I really just can’t right now. Can’t wait for everything to blow over.
Funnily enough I have also finished writing the ‘Worst Thing That Happened’ piece that I was talking about a few entries ago. 3,200 words and it’s actually only about half a day of my life in 2015. Anyway, yesterday comes a close second (stressed but at least not depressed) to being the worst day I ever had but I honestly think this incident (?) still ranks #1.
I don’t know if I will ever share it with anyone or post it anywhere though. I know what writers mean when they say they hate their own work.