October 3, 2011
Feeling troubled because of certain things recently… I think I kinda brought it upon myself but then at the same time everything’s so unexpected and complicated. My indecisiveness isn’t helping and damn you insecurities!! Sometimes I think I know what I want and sometimes I’m not so sure. It’s like I know what I have to do but how do I go about doing it? And just because things on one side are settled doesn’t mean the rest will work themselves out? My mind goes into overdrive every night from all the thinking and makes it even harder for me to fall asleep, like it isn’t a difficult task enough. And all the thinking doesn’t even help.
Right now all I ask for is for the rest of the year to be smooth-sailing and happy.
Surely it isn’t too much??