At peace
June 30, 2015
I think my blog is really depressing because everyone’s so concerned. But honestly, don’t have to worry so much because I’m really just ranting / writing / talking to myself / making pop culture references which makes me feel better.
1. I’m the dumper not the dumpee
2. I know it’s normal to feel this way so I’m not ashamed about sharing my thoughts
3. I am eating, sleeping and working as usual / fine
4. It will pass, I will get over it and be okay again
Plus today I don’t just feel okay, I actually feel quite good?!?!?! Okay but hope nothing happens tomorrow to make me go ‘Peace was never an option’ (favourite movie quote because Michael Fassbender). Perfect time to insert a gif but I shall not jinx it!!!
Dried beef hor fun for lunch and they are quite generous with the meat. I liked it until I kept gulping down water after I returned to office.
Haven’t gone to gym for more than a month and I have only ran this long like one other time. So glad I went… Nothing like running away your stress and stuff. Need to make this a frequent habit again.
Was waiting for my dad to come fetch me so I sat on a ledge because it was so windy. Looking at all the lights while listening to Snow Patrol’s Chasing Cars was so peaceful.
I was trying to do a split but changed my mind because I thought about how if I fell, everyone’s going think I committed suicide (fair enough… the cops will look at my blog and all) but NO please I am so not ready to die. And I will NEVER hurt my parents this way.
Anyway a friend walked by and I scared the living daylights out of him because it was so dark HAHAHA. Had a long convo about travelling etc and I’m really happy knowing that our friendship wasn’t ruined like I had thought. Cos of the same shit.
Kumar is back from his sponsored trip to Taiwan and he went on EVA Air so everything was Hello Kitty!!! Hehe thanks for letting me have first dibs on the bunch of Hello Kitty stuff from the plane 😀 😀 😀
Then he said he got me this pink bag which said, “Du1 Lan2 Guo2 Xiao3′ because when he heard ‘Dulan’ (Taiwan village but also ‘fed up’ in Hokkien) he thought of me -______- According to him, this is how he shows his love… in his language. LOL so funny.
Not sure if it’s the lighting or if Dubai really made me so tanned 🙁
Ok but seriously, so thankful for the people in my life because I would never have made it this far without them. Thanks for standing by me throughout everything even when I don’t deserve it, for always being so supportive and having faith in me, for listening to me moan about the same thing repeatedly like a broken recorder, for always responding to my late night SOS spams, for the very blunt opinions from some of you, for making me laugh even when laughing was the last thing I felt like doing, and for helping me find the strength to do what I needed to do.
I’m lucky because I have you guys… and I know I’ll be okay.
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