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I am a whiny bitch

  • Awful week that got better bit by bit
  • Wasted 5 hours in school doing nothing on Monday
  • Right after the first class, Ms Soo dropped a bombshell on us
  • Saying she wanted to see us at 4pm to tell us about **~Integrated Project~**
  • Anyone can figure out that **~Integrated Project~** = group work + a lot of work
  • Damn mood spoiler so early in the day -_-
  • We were assigned into groups and given our task on the first day of school
  • What even
  • School from 5pm – 7pm+ on Tuesday
  • But I woke up at freaking 6.50am to register freaking GSM
  • Got what I wanted though – French!
  • Walking to school & it was raining & so crowded & everyone squeezed under the shelter
  • They were all walking in the opposite direction because going home
  • Thus I could hardly walk properly
  • By the time I reached the lecture theatre I was so hot and my feet were wet
  • And all of days the aircon wasn’t even turned on
  • Then the lecturer was talking so S-L-O-W-L-Y
  • And then this noisy group of girls from the other class sat behind me
  • I was coughing and blowing my nose quite a lot
  • Because that’s what you do when you have flu right?
  • One of the noise pollutants said something like, “What’s wrong with her nose”
  • If I had a penny for everytime someone asked something stupid…
  • How about you stop being noisy and nosy (pun intended)
  • 10 minutes late for Chong’s tutorial on Wednesday
  • Actually I was late the entire week but the other lecturers aren’t as guailan
  • When I entered class he stopped whatever he was saying amd stared until I reached my seat
  • Which would have been fine
  • Except that there were even later people but he didn’t even stop or anything?
  • Apparently we were supposed to talk about stuff
  • And I asked Dian what was the topic and whose turn is it now
  • Chong said something like, “One at a time ok” because someone else was talking
  • But the whole session got other people whispering so loudly among themselves
  • And he didn’t even say anything wtf
  • WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM SERIOUSLY
  • GET OFF MY FUCKING BACK
  • IT IS ONLY THE FIRST LESSON
  • From Year 1 Sem1 until now never change at all wtf
  • Nothing much on Thursday
  • Just consultation and one lecture
  • Which is good. And good days are rare recently
  • Friday aka today aka really goood day
  • Can’t believe I find business law quite interesting
  • And the lecturer told us stories about criminal cases which I enjoy
  • But criminal law is not in our syllabus 🙁 🙁 🙁
  • Was talking to Darilene in class and she told me something
  • That made me 🙂 🙂 🙂 for the whole day heheheheheeee
  • Went shopping with mom at Far East after that
  • And we met on the train (planned) so it was just nice
  • Can’t believe I was telling her about the stories in business law ANIMATEDLY
  • I am talking about a school module animatedly and not whining?!?!?!?
  • New episode of TVD which was fantastic as usual
  • And I managed to do a recap AND analysis (Tumblr)!
  • I don’t do recaps for every episode, only when I’m really bursting, let alone analysis
  • But I really love analysing the show, dissecting every scene and seeing through each character
  • And writing it all down because writing is awesome and TVD is awesome
  • 2 of my greatest passions in one… muahahaha
  • If I had the time I would rewatch and do it right from 1×01 but alas..

So yep, hope next week gets better!!! It HAS to, right? No class on Tuesday and Wednesday and then we have the 27th! 😀 oh btw my fashion sense this week is horrible because I never ever plan my outfits and I’m always running late in the morning + not in the mood to make an effort lol {;_;} I told a few people and no one disagreed so I take it that they agree. Okay fine I shall make more of an effort next week. Only next week 🙂

Last thing! We got our course jackets and I actually quite like it. Not much to like about NYP so I’m always taken by surprise whenever I like something related to school -_- less expectation = less disappointment! Wish I was half as passionate about school as I am about my 4Ts (Tumblr, Twitter, Twiinklex, TVD) ……


Angst, angst, angst and more angsty rants

Ugh no idea what’s up with me these days!!! Can’t even explain in words… bleurgh. I don’t think it’s just me though. Everyone on Twitter seems the same with all their rageee tweets. I swear it’s not even PMS…

This is what I feel like in school everyday… The work feels tougher even though the timetable is a lot better compared to less semester :'( Wtheck I don’t even feel like getting started on any work zzz. It’s like I feel that nothing is important anymore. I keep telling myself to make more of an effort but my own words are falling on dead ears.

I guess it’s because the what-am-I-doing-with-my-life notion gets more and more intense.
While half-consciously listening in class, the sort-of realisation dawned on me that most of these things
1)
do not interest me 2) they are not related to my dream career at all.

I mean this stupid diploma is more of business management than media… And I do not want to go into business! I want to write! And ideally it would be writing fiction books. Novels. Not articles in newspapers or whatever news. I am into creative writing, not journalism!!!!!!!!1111 But the little media element we study in this course are all about non-fiction writing!!!!!

How to not be angsty after having this sudden lightbulb going off in this stupid head of mine? After like 1 year in this diploma??? Yep took me long enough to realise it… better late than never lol?

Dropping out of school halfway is not my thing and not an option either though. This rubbish + boring + measly diploma shall serve as a backup. I say this like I have other plans but truth is I have none. I have no idea what the future has in store and neither do I want to think about it, because it scares the shit out of me. Yep, accomplishing nothing does.

Wow and nearly all my friends have plans. Unlike me.
Seriously envy them especially those who can go overseas.
Yet some of them, the way they talk, it’s like they are so unappreciative of the fact that they can even go overseas at all. It just pisses me off so much that I wish I could just ask them to STFU.

Really… what am I doing with my life.
I find myself caring less and less about stuff.
I don’t like saying, “fml” but seriously fml.

Why oh why is my family not loaded?
Then I don’t have to worry about anything…

Arghhhh fed up. A lot more to rant about but I shan’t go into those.
Super no mood for anything. Though Ms Ang’s afternoon class today was quite interesting… discussing sensitive/controversial topics of any kind always interest me. Wish we could do more of those than stupid management theories etc -_-

Had my headphones on half the time I was in school today to shut out the world. Something that I don’t usually do, if you know me well enough. I hardly listen to music outside of my house. Not even while travelling on public transport – I just don’t have the habit.

Talking and laughing loudly should really be banned in crowded lifts. Empty vessels make the most noise, heard before?! Urgh irritating shit.

Tomorrow is a public holiday but I have group work all the way at Jurong.
HOW TO BE NOT ANGSTY YOU TELL ME?
Just counting my blessings that luckily Jurong is still on the red line.

I know I should be more grateful about what I already have, and trust me I usually am and I always try to look on the good side of things, but I just can’t help being resentful at life of late. Because people just have to keep flaunting in my faces what they have and what I don’t have, whether intentionally or not. Not only that, they also complain way more than I do and I REALLY hate unappreciative people.

I complain a lot, I know.
But it’s usually about minor stuff that we ALL complain about.
I don’t usually blog these kind of long rants about Life itself, do I?

They didn’t even work hard to achieve anything. They just have it, you know?
While there are many things in life which we have to work hard for, there are also things that people are just born with. Things like good looks and a good background and a reasonably well-off family.
Get what I am trying to say?

Life isn’t fair, that we all know.

Like I say, with money, there are a lot (and I do mean A LOT) of things that you don’t have to fret about.
So yes I admit that I am bitter and jealous and shit. Much as I struggle with these inner demons all the time and force myself stop brood over crap like these, I just can’t overcome it. I mean even before all these, I’ve had issues… I know myself.

Anyway, good for you if you understand what I’m saying and even better if you can relate.
Quite satisfied that I actually managed to put all these thoughts into words. Usually I think and think about it in my mind but never get round to blogging them properly. Hope all these troubles can leave me ~

K tired already bai.