July 11, 2011
Was just telling Dian about how I don’t like this blog anymore. I don’t know why but it’s so different from how it used to be and how I want it to be. I feel like I’m just using this to record outings and events But a blog is more than that. When was the last time I actually said what I want and simply let it all out? Been going through so much emotional distress these few weeks but I hardly mentioned a word on my blog. And I think I’d actually feel better if I let it all out here. But whenever I type out a poast, I end up deleting everything or just saving it as a draft.
Used to write a little on Tumblr but I stopped doing that too. I have taken to creating a new account with a different email there just for private stuff. Which really sucks. It’s been there for months but I started using it more only recently… Please don’t try looking for it, I left no clues that would give away my identity. Wish I can just write everything at one place. I know I can, but I don’t know what’s stopping me. Just don’t feel comfortable, I guess. Especially when I have a rough idea of who could creeping my blog. I don’t mind people reading… except the creepos -_- There are one or two crazy people that like nearly every photo of mine, even the very old ones, and they liked the whole album of profile pictures too. Wtf? If I wanna stalk people, I wouldn’t want them to know that I’m doing it -_-
I don’t understand why now Facebook has to send the messages you receive when offline in the chatbox to your inbox. Doesn’t that defeat the purpose of of appearing offline? I appear offline so that people won’t bug me but now I’m getting the messages in my inbox instead. And I don’t even wanna talk to them. It really really sucks big time when I’m expecting messages from someone else but yet all I keep getting while waiting are messages from people I don’t wanna talk to. I didn’t even reply and they still keep sending. I know I can just block them but I don’t really want to? I mean I don’t mind being friends on Facebook but just give me some privacy. Like I don’t really want my mom reading my blog too but why would I block her right -_-
Sigh looks like I’m quite socially awkward on my blog too 🙁
No mood to update as well because I’ve been very distracted. Spent the whole weekend doing nothing. Like seriously nothing, not even watching any shows or movies. Usually to me time spent is worthwhile as long as I’m enjoying it or having fun. Don’t have to be doing any work to be considered productive. But this weekend I practically did nothing. Except daydreaming, lying in bed. Didn’t even do much blogging.
It’s pretty sad, no?
Not liking your own blog.
Yeah it really is.
I hope that one day it will go back to how it is like before 🙂
Don’t see it happening anytime soon but I will try 🙂
Wonder if my long-time readers prefer
I can’t decide between the first and current one.