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Tag: work

Even regular days are wonderful

Very out of the blue update. I always have this non-stop monologue on what I’m gonna write in my blog in my mind except that these thoughts never transform into words.

Busy juggling work, sleep, social life and personal time and I’m pretty happy with the way things are turning out. I just need one more thing to happen and my year/life will be perfect, you know?? /prays hard!!!! But honestly, 2013 is one of the best years I ever had so far 🙂

Today (April 8) was another regular working day but I am in high spirits like with most days. There are just so many things to be happy and thankful for everyday. Did life really improve by leaps and bounds or had I been too blinded by all my negative thoughts in the past to notice?

– Met Andre who was going for a job interview at Clarke Quay
– Really nice when people make the effort to meet you even if the catch-up time was as brief as a train ride
– Food I packed from grandma’s house last night for brunch which I ate at my desk yum yum
– Work was fine, some good catches and editor was funny by telling us to go for lunch because he wanted his steak
– 4 of us went to the gym together and editor told me my steak made him 1kg heavier bahahah
– I’ve been running regularly and maybe it’s just endorphins but it contributes to the happiness factor
– Sat down and chilled for awhile while discussing movies and TV shows
– Got home to a warm, delicious meal cooked by mommy dearest

Ok I am gonna try reviving my blog with such pointless daily updates with no real purpose other than memory’s sake. Now I’m angry for myself for not doing so sooner and I’ll probably not remember what happened the past few months when I read my blog again 10 years down the road. But a lot does happen everyday…

I said I’d do this for 2013 but I didn’t and now I’m kinda mad at myself cos if not it would probably be quite full by now. Aiya nvm I shall rely on my blog but hopefully I am reliable enough lololol ain’t I hilarious. Well anw most important thing is, I’m really happy 🙂

Cheers to even greater things!!!! ❤

I forgot I have a blog

Kidding, kidding. It’s just not a priority right now and I barely give thought to it. No time, no mood, doesn’t feel right talking about anything here, the list goes on. Basically I’m wasting money by keeping this site running and yet not updating.

There is always so much on my mind. Is this what growing up supposed to be like? Decisions to make, things to do, people and times to keep up with etc. It feels like time passes so quickly that I can barely catch up. That and the uncertainty of the future is always looming.

I never had second thoughts about extending my contract, being a part-time staff and working there. I daresay I am really passionate about the job and it’s bordering on obsession (story for another day?). Yet today I can’t help but wonder if all the sacrifices I made over the past few months were worth it.

Of course I like having a purpose and being useful but I feel like I almost completely gave up my life of leisure. I stopped doing a lot of things such updating this blog and my Tumblrs (I can tell that I’m at the stage whereby I’m about to stop going on Yahoo Answers too simply because of time constraints), I am reading and watching movies/shows a lot lesser, etc.

And I compromise on sleep everyday but I just can’t help going to bed only after 3am. It’s not healthy but it’s just… me. Guess we can’t have our cake and eat it too. I can fit everything into one day — work, going out with friends, guinea pig duty, personal time, sometimes I run — but sleep will always be the one I sacrifice.

Another thing that actually affects me is the distance that working life has put in between me and people. Trust me, I anticipated it and for awhile I was determined to not let it bother me. But talk is easy and as usual, it bugs me like how every other thing does.

Oh and of course my paranoia just has to make an appearance :’) honestly sometimes I feel like just giving up where some people are concerned. Never feeling appreciated enough, sometimes even feeling unwanted and unimportant… but maybe it’s just me as usual.

I don’t know what’s what for me actually… but no rush to figure that out yet. Just gonna calm down and take it slow. Btw first time using the Twitter’s new ’embed tweet’ function and it looks so nice!

Hopefully I’ll have the time and mood to fill what’s left of my readers in over the next few days 🙂