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At peace

I think my blog is really depressing because everyone’s so concerned. But honestly, don’t have to worry so much because I’m really just ranting / writing / talking to myself / making pop culture references which makes me feel better.

1. I’m the dumper not the dumpee
2. I know it’s normal to feel this way so I’m not ashamed about sharing my thoughts
3. I am eating, sleeping and working as usual / fine
4. It will pass, I will get over it and be okay again

Plus today I don’t just feel okay, I actually feel quite good?!?!?! Okay but hope nothing happens tomorrow to make me go ‘Peace was never an option’ (favourite movie quote because Michael Fassbender). Perfect time to insert a gif but I shall not jinx it!!!

beef hor fun toa payoh

Dried beef hor fun for lunch and they are quite generous with the meat. I liked it until I kept gulping down water after I returned to office.

Haven’t gone to gym for more than a month and I have only ran this long like one other time. So glad I went… Nothing like running away your stress and stuff. Need to make this a frequent habit again.

Was waiting for my dad to come fetch me so I sat on a ledge because it was so windy. Looking at all the lights while listening to Snow Patrol’s Chasing Cars was so peaceful.

I was trying to do a split but changed my mind because I thought about how if I fell, everyone’s going think I committed suicide (fair enough… the cops will look at my blog and all) but NO please I am so not ready to die. And I will NEVER hurt my parents this way.

Anyway a friend walked by and I scared the living daylights out of him because it was so dark HAHAHA. Had a long convo about travelling etc and I’m really happy knowing that our friendship wasn’t ruined like I had thought. Cos of the same shit.

Kumar is back from his sponsored trip to Taiwan and he went on EVA Air so everything was Hello Kitty!!! Hehe thanks for letting me have first dibs on the bunch of Hello Kitty stuff from the plane 😀 😀 😀

Then he said he got me this pink bag which said, “Du1 Lan2 Guo2 Xiao3′ because when he heard ‘Dulan’ (Taiwan village but also ‘fed up’ in Hokkien) he thought of me -______- According to him, this is how he shows his love… in his language. LOL so funny.

Not sure if it’s the lighting or if Dubai really made me so tanned 🙁

Ok but seriously, so thankful for the people in my life because I would never have made it this far without them. Thanks for standing by me throughout everything even when I don’t deserve it, for always being so supportive and having faith in me, for listening to me moan about the same thing repeatedly like a broken recorder, for always responding to my late night SOS spams, for the very blunt opinions from some of you, for making me laugh even when laughing was the last thing I felt like doing, and for helping me find the strength to do what I needed to do.

I’m lucky because I have you guys… and I know I’ll be okay.


Non-existent happy face

Sooo busy and tired and sleepy all the time. Is this what adulthood and aging all about? Spent most of Labour Day in the office but I actually like the solitude and work is always a good distraction. I usually work from home on weekends on holidays but too many first world problems these days:

1. Laptop has been lagging like crazy (too many photos, no time to sort)
2. Mouse keeps freezing so I have to keep re-plugging
3. Internet kept going down last night
4. Phone is running out of space and has to be charged practically 24/7

everything sucks gif

Too troublesome to replace stuff and I’m trying not to spend too much as I’m going to Europe in June. My mum offered to sponsor me $300 for an iPhone 6 but nah. I have already spent so much in April!! 🙁

1. Purchased a Europe tour (more info soon!)
2. Batam weekend getaway (shopped till I dropped as usual)
3. Dyed my hair at a salon which I almost never do (just to accompany Ling Yue)
4. Did my nails at a shop which I almost never do (for fun… picked it all off in 2 weeks)
5. Treated my family to a $283 meal (the most we have ever spent on a meal I think?)
6. Keep going for buffets with my friends
7. Keep eating at new places and trying nice food
8. Dentist to fix my teeth (blog post coming up!)

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Anyway, was greeted by the most beautiful sunset ever when I left office at around 7pm. Not gonna lie, this photo has been enhanced using Instagram. Here’s the original picture taken with my Samsung S3:

braddell sunset

Another photo enhanced (over-the-top colours on purpose) using Photoshop:

singapore sunset

Anyway, continuing from my previous post on Monday. Tuesday was no better and I was seriously about to fall apart by the end of the day. I guess I must have been unusually silent because Nazreen asked me if I was okay. I said something like, “Not really… But I’ll be.”

elena not okay gif

I’d wanted to simply brush it off and lie but even pretending was difficult… like I couldn’t even rearrange my expression in time. Told her to look at my face and mood on Thursday then we will know again.

Fortunately, Wednesday was great. Everything felt like rainbows and ponies again. How many times have we been through this? When will I learn that the source of my misery is my over-active mind?

So on Thursday, I told Nazreen, “I’m wearing my reasonably happy face” because I was feeling quite good but I could feel it wearing off already (wtf will I ever learn???).

stefan happy face gif

She asked why is there a “reasonably” and said she thinks the “happy” shouldn’t be there because I sound anything but it. Lol I’m trying! Rome wasn’t built in a day.

I love quoting Vampire Diaries. I know it so well that I can reference and apply it to all sorts of situations. It’s amazing I followed a show for this long. I usually don’t even make it past half a season. Fuck emotional investment… all it gives you in return is pain and heartbreak.

Forget my non-existent happy face. This is my tired face. You know what kind of photos I hate editing the most? People! Especially of myself. I don’t even liquify but just the brightness / contrast / lighting / colors are a pain enough. Nothing will ever be as photogenic as food. First world problems.