Had a 3-week break and it was actually the best time and I was riding a high, though felt like it all came crashing down the moment I returned. Such is life!

In a bid to comfort myself, I have been spending more frivolously than usual but no regrets and money does buy happiness as I do feel better/happier. Maybe because it gives me some semblance of control unlike all the other stressors in my life.

Ok but the past 2 weekends have been both ridiculous and fun (wish I had time to spam my IG stories):

• Brunch at Basilico @ Conrad (bill for 2 was $450 LOL)
• Dinner at Chatterbox @ Hilton
• Queued over 1 hour @ Casa Vostra
• Queued almost 1 hour @ Wangi Garden
• Spent over 2 hours at the hair salon
• Spent over 2 hours at the nail salon
• Hit book club 3x and a bunch of cafes
• Also had a media tasting @ Barossa and there was a wine bar that I made very good use of

Honestly none of the food places were worth the money or queuing time hahaha but the company made up for everything!! Don’t know why people including my mother say I’m too thin because you should see the way I eat on weekends…

My nails are gorgeous and super worth it though. Beauty is hard work ok??? If I’d known they would do such a thorough job with my dry and dead skin (sorry 😂), I would have gone right after my trip and not bothered doing anything myself.

Today started with Farah encouraging me and ended with me encouraging her #life

Feel very emotionally nourished by my friendships in spite of everything going on 🥹 It’s two-way, same frequency, I can speak freely, I feel listened to, most go way back with so much history and inside jokes.

I also feel like we are all collectively going through the millennial experience: Bad job market, bad dating market, escapism, doom spending etc etc 😂😂😂

Friends. Having actual friends. Not familiar acquaintances or online mutuals. Friends. One of the best hacks for a fulfilling life. https://t.co/sK2bv7cyEW

— Melanin Monroe (@Aku__Addy) August 27, 2024

Had a hilarious time with Kumar and Deborah on Sunday cos I was being faux dramatic and outraged.

Deb: Is it the on-off one who went overseas without telling you?

Me: No, another one.

Deb: The one who called you in Africa?

Me: They both called me 🫣🫣 (Alexa, play ‘it’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me’)

Me: Remember my zebras?!?!?! I gave him one leh!!!

Kumar: ?????

Deb: You don’t understand.

Deb: She bought all the zebras in the shop.

Deb: I told her to buy all and the shopkeeper laughed at me, you know. Then she called me crazy but she bought ALL.

Kumar: … I thought you only had one and you lost it but nvm.

In my defence, it was only three zebras and one was not identical.

Me: Cos he gave me the Ratatouille so I gave him the zebra.

Deb: Ask for a trade back.

Deb: You rather have the Ratatouille or the zebra?

Me: It’s not the same!

Took him out for French food for a taste of home and he was a hit at book club 🤣 he had such a good time!!! https://t.co/IvYwbdXJD3 pic.twitter.com/ZMXvLXo5nD

— Cherlynn (@twiinklex) May 24, 2024

 

Me: Remember the macadamia nuts, I bought two packets?? One for my family, the other I gave him!!!

Me: And the cider also!!! I gave him one bottle!!!

Kumar: Errrr, I think the edibles can forget it.

(I remember early days when I asked what nuts are his favourite and he said macadamia and I joked that he has expensive taste, and I remember that he said Somersby is nice… I remember so many things but 🤷‍♀️)

Kumar: Imagine finally hearing from Cherlynn and you open the message but instead of ‘how are you’, it says, ‘Give me back my fucking zebra’.

Obviously we are all just joking (Cherlynn is too classy to hurl vulgarities so flippantly or ask for gifts back) but I do feel better 😂

I also separately texted them an update today (admittedly no full context) and they had the same response!!!

Thankful for everyone who’s been there for me cos dunno how I would be getting by 2024 otherwise 🥹

Hard to get a good, accurate picture but I adore my new nails. Have always tended to avoid red on my fingernails (love them on my toes) cos I find it kinda loud but somehow I’m feeling it now + I think it’s about finding a shade that fits.

Red is for passion (I do think I’m a passionate person by nature, I rarely do things halfway, it’s all or nothing with me and right now I’m superrr disengaged lol cos I always allow dimwits to dim my light).

Red is for the rage I feel, not at any one specific person but at everything I have been through.

Red is also strength and danger and power.

 

Been urged by multiple people to fight back and they don’t understand why I’m not. Apparently I have lots of bullets (maybe more than anyone else) and it’s “frustrating” how I am “holding back”.

Yeah ok I’ve always been an empath, INFP, mediator personality type etc blah blah. In fact I’m surprised at how I can still feel sorry for someone like that after everything and that I still feel sad/wistful over how things used to be.

But mainly it’s because I know that once I fight back, when I truly decide to go down that path, it will be ugly. Mostly for that someone but I actually don’t wish to be that kind of person either.

My go-to has always been to not engage at all because it’s beneath me 🤷‍♀️

For clarity’s sake I’m talking about an entirely different matter and person from the last few posts. Though I think by now everyone in my inner circle vaguely knows about both because I have been soooo different hahaha. Even SM of all people asked if I’m ok 😂

Sentiments are the same regardless of which friend group:

• Hardly any IG stories anymore
• “Alarmingly” thin / thinner and thinner every time
• Constant state of anxiety and stress cos I always need to go home to work or do this and that

More Farah QOTDs that I really appreciate 🥹🥹🥹:

“Remember when you went for that training and all the good feedback you got?”

“If there’s one thing we know over and over again, it’s that you are resilient.”

Anyway, back to the previous topic. Funny that I didn’t have to ask but:

• Freaking ZoukOut Guy can inform me that he’s going overseas
• On-off person can tell me he’s unavailable for the week
• Even SM told me he was going to Bangkok (“eh my favourite”) and which days he’s working

But the one I talked to most couldn’t even say a word!!!!! #IfHeWantedToHeWould