Keeping the faith

Happy new year!!! Even though I am late as usual. Love this mashup and I’ve replayed it so many times I think I can memorise the whole thing hehe. Haven’t been in the mood to blog at all even though there are so many things I’ve yet to post. Not done making changes to my blog design but I can’t be arsed either.

Honestly all I feel like doing everyday in my free time is reading all kinds of fiction and watching movies. Maybe meet up with the people I love regularly and do activities I enjoy together. Perhaps my life goal is as simple as being able to do all of that without having to worry about anything else such as getting good grades, earning money yadda yadda all the boring things you are expected to do because it’s what people deem ‘socially acceptable’.

Plus I have been feeling quite grim the past few weeks about circumstances beyond my control, in several aspects of life. But I guess it’s a lot better this week and these few days have all been pleasant. Wish it will keep getting better.

Anyway I wanna talk about internship which I really enjoy but I don’t know if it’s appropriate. Just read and keep it to yourselves ok? I will post my whole collection of pictures from food to OOTDs to random stuff after 8 Feb when it officially ends! Though I will most probably extend because good jobs are hard to come by, let alone enjoyable ones.

I don’t want to come off as boasting but I really wanna share my happiness about the job. And what if everyone expects me to get an A but I don’t? Of course I want it but I barely think about it actually. First of all, I don’t wanna get my hopes up. Secondly, I don’t think I am being that outstanding anyway. Thirdly, my motivation behind working hard goes far beyond grades.

In a nutshell…

• I have a desire to contribute, help out and actually make a difference
• There’s emotional satisfaction because I do proper/relevant work plus I feel valued
• Not a victim of those ‘intern nightmares’ you hear about (bullied, etc)
  
• Which actually exist from what I know and heard…
• The money is a small bonus I guess
• Sometimes I forget I am working for grades
• Everyday is a new day of learning
  
• Everyone is so understanding and helpful and nice
  
• In the past, people from school pissed me off all the time
• Now when I’m pissed off, the culprit is only myself
• Even the cleaners here are nicer than NYP’s

Anyway about 2 months plus into the internship (end of November), my editor gave me publishing rights!! Before, I would write the articles and leave it on the software for him to check through and publish onto the website. Now I can publish stuff on my own directly! Granted access into the site’s fb and twitter too hehe.

Was so elated when he first told me ok… You know what’s the best part? I asked my colleagues if past interns have ever been allowed to publish on their own and they said no. Hahahahahaha how can I not be happy, you tell me?!?!? 😀 Not saying my work is great because I still have loads to improve on.

Mr Azhar came to visit today and I told him but he said he already knew and told me to keep it up ^^ gonna see if I can find out who told him LOL. Okay I hope I don’t get into trouble for this blog post but happiness shared is multiplied.

Of course, it’s not always rainbows and sunshine (again, circumstances beyond control) but Terence always tells me to “keep the faith”. There’s a intern my age who’s been here for 2 months plus so it’s nice to have someone to talk to about certain things as well.

All in all, I’m really grateful for this opportunity and towards everyone in my office. Have learnt so much and there is really nothing like experiencing something on your own. It’s really different from what I’d expected and working there has really grown on me 🙂 Maybe this is mean but hearing classmates complain about their jobs and what they go through just makes me all the more thankful for mine.

Of course I hope nothing happens to make me wanna eat back my words 😛