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Fascinating free fall feeling

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September 24th, 2018 Posted 12:30 am

September 24, 2018 / 12:30AM

Can’t believe how time flies??? I didn’t realise the last time I updated was over a month ago but I’ve been so lazy and tired and busy. I think the hours I worked this weekend amounted to one regular weekday and it’s like 7 working days in a row 😞

Anyway I fell off my bed at the start of September and I still remember the feeling till now. It’s a storage bed that’s higher than average so the fall hurt quite a bit. I fell on my left side but look at the bruises I found when I was fully conscious in the morning:

Fall down bed bruise

Fall down bed injured

The reason why I’m writing about this seemingly mundane incident is mostly for myself because I wanna remember it. But honestly I felt quite fascinated by how I felt during the fall even though I was half asleep.

I remember dreaming about something (though I can’t recall what it was) and then I turned towards the left, thinking there was a lot of bed space (clearly there wasn’t). Next thing I knew, I was falling and technically I know it was only seconds before I landed, but it felt much longer and a lot went through my mind during the descent.

I can’t remember exactly what I was thinking but I did tweet about it after landing (and yeah it happened at 6ish in the morning):

As the title suggests, it was a very fascinating free fall feeling… like you are in the air and you know you are falling but you simply enjoy this sick sensation and while you might have flailed your limbs, you don’t open your eyes until you land painfully.

I know I got up and went back to bed and had another random dream. I didn’t notice the bruises on my left pinky finger and the left side of both my knees until much later. Wish I’d recorded down the two dreams too but oh well.

Anyway you can say I’m psychoanalysing myself or over-thinking or just knowing myself but this weirdass sensation I’m so fascinated with is like the same kind of feeling I get from some of my most toxic/no-no relationships wtf. Some of you might know that I am very attracted to one particular sort of relationship… I call it an affliction because I know I should stay away and run for the hills but at the same time I can’t help being drawn.

It’s like you know it will crash and burn and end in flames but you go ahead anyway because the thrill of the journey is unparalleled to anything else you’ve ever experienced. Yes you’re only gonna land with a painful thud, there’s no other ending to this, but the descent makes you feel so… wow. I don’t know even how to describe it. And then when you finally snap out of it, that’s when the pain comes and you lick your wounds.

Ugh I don’t wanna say too much here but we’ll see.

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‘Tis a day to be jolly

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August 18th, 2018 Posted 1:30 am

August 18, 2018 / 1:30AM

I meant to update because quite a few interesting things happened but I’m just so lazy!!! My list of to-read books is forever growing, plus I started journaling again (putting all the cute notebooks I’m hoarding to good use). It’s something I used to do in class all the time during my triple science and double math lessons cos I hate them all.

Most days are good days but today feels like a wonderful day!! 🌞

The night before, I tucked myself into bed at 9pm, watched 2 episodes of Meteor Garden 2018 and slept at 10.30pm. The night owl in me is very proud of myself. I usually don’t sleep so early but I had to do an interview at 7.30am today and I was afraid of being late.

Interview went pretty well and you can say I sort of Stomped myself hahaha:

PR and all but I was damn self-conscious about having my photo online because we all know the Internet can be a cruel place. And my self-esteem is super fragile lol I must have bugged Farah a dozen times for her opinion on which pic looked the least awkward etc.

Honestly not my best photo but I shall not focus on my flaws. It’s true that you are your own worst critic because I was worried about the comments but they were all positive ones (so far). And some weren’t just about the story 😳😳😳

Thank you for putting a smile on my face. I do feel quite happy and flattered and I appreciate it!

If we were still on speaking terms, you would be the first person I would have shown these screenshots to, because that’s what I always did, but we are not, so here’s me blogging about it instead but whatever 🤷

After the interview, Farah and I left the school and I feel like the day just kept getting better:

  • Decided to save money and take the bus, which came in a minute
  • Went to our beloved McDonald’s for iced lattes and breakfast!! Omg so good
  • Online flash sales everywhere when we reached office so of course we had to shop and buy something 😂
  • Got to leave early after finishing our work!

Went to walk around Northpoint and I bought stuff AGAIN LOL… Mostly food for my family and a skincare set from Guardian for my mum. And treats for my hamsters!!! On the bright side, I managed to stay away from the library.

These are just treats and it added up to like $35… Maybe it’s guilt for not playing with them last night cos I wanted to sleep early. But it was just ONE night!! I play with them and do cleaning almost every night.

I think I’m obsessed with my hamsters??? But they are so freaking cute!!! 😍 Some days I smother the eldest one with 20 kisses in a row and once I read him a page from my book while he was on my bed. I cannot imagine what it would be like if I have a human child.

Another reason to be happy today was because a book that I bought online arrived today:

I think it’s a good deal because Book Depository sells it for almost $30 but I got it for $19 hehehe. And ya this is why my to-read list keeps growing.

Ok I’m gonna abuse Netflix now. Yippee!!!

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