Never felt this way before
October 18, 2015
Oh I had the time of my life
And I’ve never felt this way before
And I swear this is true
And I owe it all to you
One of my favourite moments when you were driving me back home after what had been a very special day (to me anyway, even though we didn’t do much. But the thing is, with you, the most extraordinary moments were somehow also the most normal things).
This song came on the radio. You were singing along to it and other than thinking about how perfect everything was, I was also wondering if there was anything you even sucked at because other than your many talents and achievements, you could also sing so well.
Truly an amazing way to top off what had already been such an unforgettable day. I’d never felt safer, happier and at home with you than one that day. Like everything was really going to be okay and nothing else mattered except for the two of us.
This was despite the little hitch we had at the coffeeshop near my house (another place that I can never see in the same way ever again) when we ran into your cousin. As such, I couldn’t even get a proper goodbye in. The dreaded goodbye that I’m so familiar with because I have to start counting down the days to when I’ll see you again.
It was pretty late by then. I overslept and missed an important class I had the next day but I didn’t even care. I didn’t care about a lot of things to be with you and when I was with you. And I still don’t regret a moment of it.
It was like a dream and fantasy that I eventually had to wake up from… so why do I still miss you everyday?
“But the absence of him is everywhere I look. It’s like a huge hole has been punched through my chest. But In a way, I’m glad. The pain is the only reminder that he was real.” — Bella Swan, New Moon