And other terribly awkward moments that made Wednesday (Jan 15) one of the most mortifying days I ever had. Lol I have been meaning to blog about it so as to get it all out, because I cannot forget how embarrassing that day was, especially at lunch ;_; And that’s getting trolled by Terence, Kumar and Azhar (an everyday thing actually) aside.
Had a super bimbotic moment. Kumar already downloaded this huge gallery then I told him we were using another 1.3GB one instead. Said I’ll pass him the photos through a thumbdrive to save download time, which he threw at me and it hit me right smack on the forehead and everyone laughed.
I said his verbal abuse (he makes fun of me every single day) has escalated into physical abuse, and I told everyone he attacked me on purpose. Later, I suggested that he should have thrown it lower cos I’m not tall (makes no sense, I know) but he said that would be sexual assault HAHA.
Well anw his thumbdrive was bent so I couldn’t use it anyway, borrowed Terence’s but no space and in the end I remember I could just transfer via the shared server on our PCs -_- Sigh why am I always so silly! And that’s not even the worst part.
Went to that Western stall I mentioned in an entry earlier for lunch (read this part about free food to understand better). Was already feeling awkward and I also feel bad for not eating there often (last time I went was when I wrote that entry, more than a month ago).
You know how it’s been super windy these few days? Was ordering food at the counter and my dress was flapping about and it suddenly flew up so I had a wardrobe malfunction, and Terence was right beside me and saw everything. Wtf I sincerely hope no one else did… Oh god! WHY, WIND, WHY? Then I told him that he didn’t see anything but he said he can’t unsee T_T but I think he’s forgetting about it now that it’s been a few days.
Ironic how not long ago I posted this exact story on Lollipop lol gonna crawl into a hole now.
But no, my story is far from over. As usual, Terence and Kumar kept making fun of me, this time because of what happened last time when we ate there (see entry I referenced). Like how my food always comes last because it’s “made with TLC” or I’m gonna get freebies again and I think the worst comment is from Kumar, about how “the cook keeps looking at you”.
Geeez! I didn’t even tell them about the part where the other guy at the stall kept making fun last time and asked the cook if he needed help getting my number. RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. Plus I already knew what Kumar said (just feigning igorance as usual) which is why I almost never look in the direction of the stall or him if I can help it.
Didn’t eat there the next day but had to buy food back from there for colleagues who stayed in the office. Usually I would buy because they give me a bigger serving but this time I refused to walk past the coffeeshop at all so as to avoid any awkwardness and guilt about not eating there.
Anw was talking about it with my colleagues and they were all, “Ya he always looks at you” and Kumar (I never even knew he noticed anything so all his ‘observations’ surprised me) even said, “He keeps trying to smile at you” (oops) then Baoying also mentioned how she noticed I always look down and hide behind my hair.
Which led me to think OH SHIT GUESS I AM NOT AS SUBTLE AS I THOUGHT LOL (neither is the other party apparently) and now I feel more bad about it than usual! My usual technique for dealing with such situations has always been to feign ignorance and act normally but this time I’m like overdoing it and pretending the person doesn’t exist idek.
I don’t usually blog about such things at all since 1) the things I have to say are mostly complaints, 2) the people involved are stalking my blog, 3) I prefer the privacy. But in this case I’m not irritated, just feeling the funny kind of awkward and the awkward kind of funny. Plus there is no chance he will read this lol. Unless I’m really suay.
There are always pros and cons to being a regular customer somewhere and eating at the same few places near my workplace has made these even more noticeable. Of course I’m not going to complain about freebies, lower price, bigger portions etc but I hate feeling so guilty every time I don’t buy from them! It’s a really terrible feeling. Lolol #firstworldpains sorry guys.
Not just at this Western stall but everywhere with people that recognise me — probably not hard at all especially since I either always order the same thing or make the same requests or come with the same people (lol all the aunties love Terence). So many places have commented about how I haven’t been there for sometime and then I have to lie that I have been busy (yeah right as if I don’t eat when I’m busy… there are just too many places to choose from everyday).
That day I ordered seafood fried rice + extra meat for Azhar (who can eat the exact same thing for a week and I buy for him most of the time, so you can see why stall owners recognise me) from this Thai food place. They forgot the meat and charged a dollar less so I went back and told them. The uncle went to add meat for me and then I said, “$1 more right?” But he said no need and to come back and eat again. See?! How to not feel guilty if I don’t buy from him the next time I go to that coffeeshop?!
Well to continue with the story, had dinner and watched Wolf Of Wall Street (love it, definitely Oscar-worthy) with Andre after work. Hate worrying that the cinema staff would insist on checking ICs everytime I watch a R21 film because it would really suck if one person could go in while the other had to wait outside -_- Fortunately no such thing has happened yet. The excuse I always have as backup is that I lost my wallet but I’m the same age as whoever I’m with.
Anw we had this conversation:
Me: When was the last time I saw you? Like damn long ago.
Andre: 1 November, we watched Thor at Yishun.
Me: Wow can’t believe you can remember the exact date.
Andre: And I think you were wearing the exact same thing.
Me: Oh shit. That’s embarrassing.
Wtf talk about coincidence. And why does he remember crap like that! I wore what I wore precisely because I haven’t worn it for ages. You would think more than two months was enough to wear the same thing again… Fortunately he is one of those friends I am so close with that I don’t really care ahahaha.
On a not really related note, sometime in November I was at the office gym after work and stayed there till 9plus. Was about to leave but this Avril Lavigne song came on the radio so I thought I’d leave after listening to it. Who knows I ended up stuck there for 30 minutes because this guy came up and started a conversation:
- Told me about his workout routine and bodybuilding past
- Heck, even his daily routine and what he eats each part of the day
- Including how he feeds his pet bird every night
- How he always see me at the gym (can’t say the same back though)
- How I’m so serious because everyone else had already left
- How I’m the first female to start and the last female to leave
It was actually okay and I wasn’t annoyed or creeped out. But I kept looking at the clock because I really wanted to leave already but he just kept going on and on! Well, he can eat his words back now because I haven’t been back to the gym since due to a lack of time and willpower.
Told my colleagues about it the next day and when I got to the pet bird part, Azhar being Azhar asked “Which bird?” and the rest is history.
Things I have learnt:
- Don’t underestimate the wind’s power
- Hold your dress down because prevention is better than cure
- Don’t visit the same stall or order the same things too many times
- Guys can have a good memory, sometimes even better than you
- Waiting 2 months before wearing something again is not long enough
- Avoid Avril Lavigne when you are at the gym
- You are never as subtle as you think
That and we need more places to eat because by Friday we were all bored and couldn’t decide where to go.
Attended a screening of Delivery Man with my brother on Dec 20, courtesy of Nuffnang! :) Starring Vince Vaughn, Chris Pratt, and Cobie Smulders, it’s a comedy that’s a remake of Starbuck (2011). Out in local cinemas on 1 Jan!
“An affable underachiever finds out he’s fathered 533 children through anonymous donations to a fertility clinic 20 years ago. Now he must decide whether or not to come forward when 142 of them file a lawsuit to reveal his identity.”
Normally, comedy is the last second genre (out of all the main ones) I’d watch (the last being animation) in theatres because I tend to find them unfunny and not worth the money. Even on a whole, I rarely watch movies that are purely comedy. So I wasn’t expecting much from Delivery Man.
Turned out it was actually pretty okay and there was genuine humour at some parts! Not crude-and-try-too-hard funny but the good kind so that was a definite plus. To be honest, I did fall asleep at some parts not because it was boring but because I came from a Christmas party and was slightly tipsy (lol), but whatever I did see, I liked.
Storyline was fresh and heartwarming, the characters were real and likeable, and it was an entertaining flick with some pretty good moments. Not Oscar material nor the kind critics would rave about, but it’s a feel-good movie for when you are in the mood for something light-hearted.
My rating: 6/10
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Dinner at Aston’s afterwards ^^ Photos look different from my usual because I’ve stopped using my digicam ever since I got my S3 which died earlier that night. So I had to use my brother’s phone but the pictures turned out weird…
I know, I know, I have been blogging. I guess you can say I’ve pretty much given up on it for now because I have a lot of other things to do and a lot of stuff going on all the time. And when I’m not doing anything, all I want to do is read and watch movies. Super love Goodreads and IMDB! :D
Just look at how many events I have yet to blog about, and they are the ones WITH photos -_- Not forgetting sub-folders… Don’t think I’ll ever finish. Don’t even know who still reads my blog anyway. One of the extensions on my blog needs fixing but I can’t be bothered so I no longer have a view counter nor do my entries get automatically shared on Facebook.
Can you believe it’s the second last day of the year already? This is insane!
Wow so it’s December. I mean WOW. Had a lot going on in life and I was crazy as busy + stressed so blogging wasn’t one of my priorities. Still isn’t actually but well, it’s been rotting since September and I have the time + mood today so why not. Just a quick run-through on what’s been going on though so it might bore you.
Just for fun to show my love for pink though I have gone out like that before and I think it was fine.
Batman shirt from HMV during its closing down sale :( – $22
(been eyeing it for ages and so sad about HMV cos I always buy DVDs there)
Demin shorts I’ve always loved – $5
Flats from H&M – $17.90
Bag from online blogshop – $30
(Probably the most expensive bag I own but how could I resist the colour)
My mum’s iPad that bro & I got for her birthday – $600+
(So nice to use and I’m tempted to get a mini myself but idk seems like a waste)
Kindle Paperwhite from my brother as a birthday present – ???
(Even came all ready with the screen protector and pink cover lol ily)
500GB Sony hard disk where I store all my movies – $100?
(love the metallic pink so much and wish I had bought 2 cos I can’t find anything similar)
Samsung Galaxy S3 which I’ve had since Sep but haven had time to mention – $200+
(Wanted the pink one but it was OOS so I made do with a white and found the perfect cover)
The gigantic box loaded with loads of junk with my Kindle buried underneath. Apparently it was to throw me off the scent. It worked — I was pretty sure he was gonna give me a Kindle because he had been sounding me out but this confused me.
Tada! Another prized possession I love so much.
It’s only about a month old but I’ve got like around 500 books inside and I never wanna go anywhere without it. Paperbacks will always be different (and expensive) but this had made my life so much more convenient. Plus I download the books I want manually through extensive usage of Google so it’s all free :P though some are impossible to find sigh but it’s okay.
I miss all my trashy books about high school drama so much and this Kindle has practically saved my life. Somedays all I want to do is lie on my bed and read, which is what I mostly do in whatever little free time I have. My movie list is kinda dead if you noticed, because I feel bored and unimpressed by everything.
Packed my paperbacks the other day and there’s so many that I have to place them in different places, so I had to sort by authors. Not even all that I own though hehehe just the ones I like better. So much pink as usual, most of which were Meg Cabot’s books which went on for three stacks. Made me feel quite bummed about inconsistent covers or missing books in a series though :(
Wish I had excess money to splurge on getting complete collections… did I mention I had the same books with different covers because I couldn’t remember if I owned a particular book? So I set up my Goodreads account properly to keep track of what books I own, what I’ve read and my ratings too :D
My favourite series ever and funnily enough it is of the supernatural genre which I hate again (i.e. Vampire Diaries). Can’t wait to re-read it and swoon over Jesse. Still remember that I got started on the series because my sec school librarian bought me the second book as some prize. I asked for Meg Cabot’s Jinx which was out of the budget (got it myself eventually) but wow imagine if I never read The Mediator…
Speaking of books, the new covers for The Hunger Games trilogy are stunning and I want them T_T The previous black covers were gorgeous as well. Unfortunately I already have my box set (refer to above pic) but it’s the original, first edition cover so no complaints.
Have seen Catching Fire twice and I really like it. So much better than Hunger Games (which was juvenile) because it didn’t just focus on the big picture but captured the political unrest and psychological fear so well. Anw my first viewing was the Double Feature, back to back screening of both movies so it was quite the experience.
Jena Malone and Sam Claifin weren’t my ideal Johanna and Finnick, but they are perfect. Cried during the speech at District 11 both times and more. Don’t know how my heart is gonna survive Mockingjay TWICE. So mad that the ‘I love you” “I know” meadow scene wasn’t in the movie though and irritated me that they were already starting to destroy Gale.
Finally got my black singing bone kitty! Even got the owl which isn’t sold in Singapore. I have my ways and it does not involve buying from whatever Taobao site ^^ Don’t really care about the rest, these are the only ones I find cute and Blackie was the only one I really wanted all along.
Can I just say that I love everything I own? From books to clothes / shoes / bags / everything! So proud of my possessions, just wish I had more space hehe. Honestly my shopaholism has no limits…
Missing JB and not going there as much anymore because of my work and David’s diving. Sigh my cheap movies / beer / lok lok / coffee and basically the full package. Can’t believe it’s only two more months till he leaves for Australia. Can’t imagine life without one of the best friends I ever had and by ‘best’ I mean it not as a title but as a verb.
Horrible blistered feet from new shoes. Now to talk about work.
October and maybe half of November were rough months. Wanted to perform, to do well but it was just hiccup after hiccup. Kept screwing up and getting screwed until it felt like my career was like A Series Of Unfortunate Events. Felt guilty, so incompetent and wondered if I was really cut out for this. Wish some things never happened and I could undo them, even if they have blown over now. Wanted to just throw in the towel and give up at times.
Don’t think anyone really understood how I felt except for maybe for a few though I think everyone could tell how stressed I was. Started handling other sections as well and there seemed like there was so much to do all the time. Everything came all at once and I was so overwhelmed. Maybe because I wasn’t used to it. But at one point, some days by the time I was done settling work stuff, it was 4am and I barely had anytime left to sleep.
Not that I spent all night on work. Just that in the past it used to be 1) work /school 2) social and family life 3) personal time 4) sleep and I could pick 3. As usual I sacrificed sleep but my stamina was much better plus work wasn’t that intense yet. At that point I felt like I could only pick 2 so the ones I gave up were 3 and 4. Refer to my movie list and you can see the period where I only watched movies in theatres because that went to social life. Didn’t watch movies on my laptop alone at all.
Also had to deal with other screwed up shit. So yes, rough patch in life and I even wondered if it was punishment for being too happy and lucky from January to August.
But finally, I felt like things were looking up again last week, I felt the positivity. And I would like to believe that the worst is over and no more shit happens. I laughed so much today that I thought I might have finally snapped. But I was really happy. Am really happy. Endless gratitude to the people at work for helping me through everything as always and for the people who never left my side. Inside jokes, verbal sparring, all my favourite memories.
Feeling more free and less stressed too. Spent last Thursday and Sunday mostly watching movies all day and reading all night because I wasn’t working. Felt like a luxury that I hadn’t enjoyed in ages because these days, there’s always people (friends, buyers, sellers) to meet or errands to run even when I’m not working. Hopefully this luxury turns back into a habit like it used to be.
Lunch was like the cherry and icing on top of my already wonderful day. We ate at the western place where I always order the same thing (most of the time), such that the guy who always takes my order can recite it before I even open my mouth.
So today as usual I went to collect my food when it was ready, and was surprised to see extra meat. It has happened before, like more pasta, bigger piece of chicken or an extra sausage, but not this. Then the same guy said something like, “送你两个drumlets。厨师讲你很美。” [Give you free drumlets. The chef said you're very pretty.]
Not that I’m damn hard up for compliments or anything but I just think it was a nice gesture. And I appreciate nice gestures that don’t expect anything in return. Then I told my colleague, “Eating here made my day” hahahaha
So much love and adorable for this little fellow who I can never stop fangirling over. None of my Instagram photos of her ever need filters because who needs filters when you have natural beauty that is bubbling with cuteness?! I got mouse ears in Bangkok to match yours, beloved furball. I miss your sister all the time.
Felt like crying (okay fine, I teared up) while writing Paul Walker articles today… Even though I have only seen like 3 of his movies (She’s All That / Joy Ride / Fast 6) but I’ve always noticed him because of how good-looking he is. Shocked to hear the news of his death on Sunday. It was like Cory Monteith again except that I’m more emotional about this.
Exact quote from Catching Fire (scene where I cried) came to mind:
“She wasn’t just my ally – she was my friend. I see her in the flowers that grow in the meadow by my house. I hear her in the Mockingjay song. I see her in my sister Prim. She was too young, too gentle. And I couldn’t save her. I’m sorry.”
Too young, and way too soon. Made me think about how I could be dead tomorrow and not know it. Life is honestly too short and fragile. We are nothing but one of many. Need to learn how to cherish and live with no regrets.
Depressing stuff aside, looking forward to all the events coming up! Sarah’s wedding, ST party, more than ten over days without work, Christmas etc etc. No more drama but just happiness and positivity please. Nice spilling everything even if nobody reads this anymore. Just renewed my blog domain and server subscription for another year so this site will still be here, updates or not :)