Category: Others

Hit by a random memory today while on the way to catch my flight to Melbourne.

It was from when we just met. You were talking to someone else about her relationship before turning to me and asking what about me, do I have any similar problems or something. I said no, I’m usually a very happy person.

Hahahahaha how ironic that it was you who changed all of that.

I miss that person I used to be. Will that version of me ever come back? Pain changes people. Nothing much seems to keep me happy anymore. Being happy is one thing, staying happy is another.

I know that I am acting like someone died. I guess the old me did.

The only way out is through because there’s no going back to anything.

But it’s been so long and I don’t feel like the pain has subsided at all.

Every day I try to fight it but how much longer do I have to do this?

Maybe I’m not trying hard enough. But I’m just so tired.

What else am I supposed to do?

Some days it feels like it would be easier to simply let the pain consume me.