August 28, 2024
Feels like I’m having one therapy session after another 😂
Dinner with Charlie today and this is what he said:
“Means you are not on his priority list.”
“No you are not overreacting.”
“Just make sure you hold on to your stand. Don’t 心软 then give in.”
(My response: “That’s my problem. I always don’t hold on to my stand.”)
“That’s why I say. Cos I can tell. I read people very well.”
“Always find someone who loves you more than you love them.”
“He doesn’t treasure you, you must treasure yourself.”
I wonder if my friends would say the same thing if they had the full context 🙃
I guess I’m at the stage (again) where I’m second-guessing myself and wondering if I overreacted (I really don’t think so). All I wanted was to be informed that you would be overseas, like you have done so before. We even talked for over an hour the night before but there was not a word about it.
I didn’t even explain to anyone the degree of closeness but yes: Hour-long calls, daily chats, relationship lingo, having me saved as a sticker on your phone, asking me for my itinerary and flight details every time I travel and pinning the message in our chat, being in the doctor’s room with me, seeing me the day before I flew to Africa, seeing me the day I flew back… Do I not have the right to feel hurt??
Forgive me for thinking that someone who meant enough for you to save their photo and turn into a sticker on your phone deserves to be updated on something as basic as you not being around.
It is actually such a sacred and special sticker to me that I haven’t shared or used it in any other chat but I guess it was just me being a damned fool all along.
These came in a pair and we have one each but hey obviously means nothing too!!! The darned ring means nothing. The ilys mean nothing. No reason for me to be hurt and upset!!!!
